| tears of memories |
[Aug. 28th, 2008|11:31 pm] |
when you're all alone, don't forget me.
when i'm all alone, i won't forget you either. |
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| forgiveness |
[Aug. 27th, 2008|12:51 am] |
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forgiveness is not something we do for other people
we do it for ourselves, to get well and move on.
forgiveness means giving up all hope of a better past |
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| you don't know me you don't even care |
[Aug. 24th, 2008|10:34 pm] |
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how does it feel?
when your family members doubt you?
on things that you swear to them that you never did, but somehow they'll still doubt you in certain ways.
though they told you they were just asking but i still feel as if that they don't trust me.
I FREAKINGLY SWEAR TO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD AND GOD! THAT I WILL NEVER EVER DO SOMETHING AGAINST MY OWN PRINCIPLES OF LIFE. (not gonna mention anymore detail but it's not a big deal actually, but it IS for me)
sighs.
since my own family members doubt me, who else should i trust and to spill all my dirts to?
nobody.
they told me that i can tell them ANYTHING, but now i don't think i will say anything to anyone. to me, it's pointless. |
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| devastation |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|11:49 pm] |
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i'm tired.
so so very tired.
i don't even know what you want.
please don't play around with me. please.
urgh. gonna be in campus whole day tomorrow. photography 3 lectures. darn. need sleep. my life is pretty much back to the old routine. waking up at 8am and sometimes not even getting any sleeps at night. come home to meet up with some shits. sometimes, it's so hard being me. but who would understand? everyone has their own life. ;[[[[
mr bf what you want la? oh no. you're still not mr bf. sighs. BITE! ;E |
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| ain't worth it |
[Aug. 19th, 2008|10:22 pm] |
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my breast seems to be getting bigger. AHAHAH! whatever~
i'm so so so sleepy now but i've got pending assignments to be done and a 500 words essay to be written for tomorrow's sociology's class. omg.
sighs.
i tried not to think about you because after doing all those thinking, i guess you were just another come and go person in my life.
i did try to know you more but then you never allow me to.
i tried to care about you but you just somehow ignore whatever i did and made me felt as if i'm a stalker or shit.
it's not fun. not fun.
telling myself everyday that someday i'll be with you but i seems to be lying to myself.
you..
are.making.me.so.damn.effin.devastated.right.now |
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| nothing is right or wrong. it's just how we take it and then re-evaluate it |
[Aug. 18th, 2008|11:43 pm] |
i didn't wanna wake up from my dream this morning because you were in it and everything seemed so wonderful until my bloody dog banged my door. dammit! so much for the sweet dream. blahs!
you were so amazing. not very sure that it was a wet dream though. aha!
i want you. lust. |
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| there is something left in my head |
[Aug. 13th, 2008|10:44 pm] |
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i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling so strong
we're lasting for so long
but i'm not the girl your heart is missing
that's why you go away i know..
baby~
i so need you to be right next to me now
i'm missing you so so much
though i just saw you
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| new semester |
[Aug. 10th, 2008|11:53 pm] |
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woohoo! after having my acoustic guitar for damn effin long, i'm finally getting myself a guitar class. YES! I KNOW! madness but i've been longing to play guitar for so long just that for the past few years didn't really had much time for guitar so only til now then i'm free. yes! FREEEE! hopefully i can learn those chords fast because i wanna play all those songs i wanted to play long long long time ago! ;B
anyways college starting tomorrow and i'll be in a new semester. less modules which means more hardwork and effort. not very satisfied with my semester 3 results although i pass every module. felt as if i didn't wholely put in ALL my efforts. >.<
alright. toodles.
blackout on 9th august evening
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[Aug. 8th, 2008|10:37 pm] |
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people were wondering why did i switch to livejournal? because i accidently deleted my blog address in blogspot. archives all gone so since i didn't wanna use blogspot anymore, i moved to livejournal. anyways, not important. ;B
by the way, i have tons of pics to post up here. teehee~ click on the links to view more.
  
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| meaningful yet painful but so true |
[Aug. 8th, 2008|01:29 am] |
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Life can be wonderful and splendid yet, painful at the same time. We'll never understand what life is about until we really learnt a lesson. After we experienced them, then we'll know how true most of the things what people around us kept telling us. It's just the way things are in life. Life will never change unless you're willing to change them. Certain things or person will never always be there for you unless you know how to appreciate them all the while. Lesson of life is so painful but yet it bring us grow.
Dont let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life. It's not wrong to make someone a priority in our life but think the other way round, does the person even put you in their priority list although that someone meant so much to you yet you're just another normal beings in their life? Relationships work best when they are balanced.
Never explain yourself to anyone, because the person who likes you doesnt need it and the person who dislikes you wont believe it. Sounds quite a familiar situation huh? Basically it's true in a way. The person who likes you for sure will stay with you and supports you all the way no matter what, while the one who dislikes you wont even give a damn about what you're trying to explain to them, they'll still dislike you. It's the fact.
This is what we always face, for me, almost all the time. ;D When you keep saying you are busy, then you are never free. When you keep saying you have no tim, then you will never have time. When you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow, then your tomorrow will never come. This is so me! I have pending assignments because of this statements. ;S But, i guess im not the only one saying that.
When we wake up in the morning, we have 2 simple choices, either go back to sleep and dream, or wake up and chase those dreams. As simple as that. The choice is ours.
We make them cry who care for us. We cry for those who never care for us. And we care for those who will never cry for us. True aint it? The one who actually cares and loves us, we made them cry. Knowing that they care for us yet we still hurt them. We cry for those who dont really care for us as much as we do. They are on our mind all the time but we are only a small part of them in their life. Was is worth it? Who knows, but that's the fact.
Dont make promise when you are in joy.
Dont reply when you are sad.
Dont take decision when you are angry.
Think twice, act wise~
Time is like a river. We cant touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. Enjoy every moment of life as it will never comes again.
This is the truth of life. It's strange but true.
Im only 19 and yet, i realised that whatever i mentioned were true. That's how amazing life can be sometimes yet so painful. Sometimes we even did things that we know we will regret in the end but we still did it? Why? God knows.
But whatever i do and whatever situation im in now, there must be a reason behind everything. It's just not the right time for me to get the answer as it's still a very long journey for me to go.
I'll appreciate all these moment i can spend with everyone now, either in the real world or this 'imaginary' world (get what i mean ;]). Although i know that certain people i wont be able to meet them but at least i get to know them, it's worth it for me because i wont know when will i go. I can just go anytime, anywhere. ;']
We push very hard everyday to make more money, to gain power and recognition. We neglect our health , time with our family and to appreciate the surrounding beauty and the hobbies we love.
One day when we look back , we will realize that we don't really need that much , but then we cannot turn back time for what we have missed.
Life is not about making money, acquiring power or recognition . Life is definitely not about work. Work is only necessary to keep us living so as to enjoy the beauty and pleasures of life. Life is a balance of Work and Play , Family and Personal time. You have to decide how you want to balance your Life. Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of Life, the whole aim of human existence.
So, take it easy, do what you want to do and appreciate nature. Life is fragile , Life is short. Do not take Life for granted. Live a balanced lifestyle and enjoy Life!
Watch your thoughts ; they become words.
Watch your words ; they become actions.
Watch your actions ; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character .
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny
last but not least, i love you.
have a little thoughts to yourself~
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| the world need millions of people to be in it but my world only needs you |
[Aug. 6th, 2008|12:23 am] |
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i'm so effin sleepy and tired right now but i just don't wanna go to bed.
those songs had been playing ever since, erm.. i have no idea when. those words are just so me now. everything i wanted to say are all there, in those lyrics.
i'm trying to stay positive all these while. i thought of so many things. so many until it really got me hanging.
i've been asking myself whether:
is he worth it?
am i being foolish?
should i go on waiting?
what should i do now?
i miss him alot but i can only speak to the wall for now.
part of me told me to hold on while the other part told me to let it go. i'm in dilemma.
this provocation of love, it's driving me nuts. it's making me insane.
sighs.
guess in the end, i'll be the only one left to endure those pains. he'll never know what i went through. because, he don't give a shit. ;((( |
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| i'm not pretending |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|10:51 pm] |
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adrenaline was pumping. i was almost out of air then i grabbed hold of myself. inhaling and exhaling. telling myself to cool down.
and again, i told myself: it's the matter of time.
everything seems to be so.. lost.
you were indeed the best thing that happened to me for the last couple of months. |
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[Aug. 4th, 2008|12:25 am] |
okay. i'm feeling a little giddy now. i have no idea why. feels like vomitting anytime now. maybe it's because i didn't eat anything much for dinner.
anyway, today went down to the ict expo aka pc fair to grab my external hdd. dragged my cousin along because he knows more bout those stuff and i was glad i brought him along. so now i have an external hdd to put all my shits in. later in the evening followed my cousin down to foodfair again along with my baby cam. ;)))))
uploads later |
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| pms is over but im still in a bad mood |
[Aug. 2nd, 2008|05:17 pm] |
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there! my title explains it all! NOT! i still need to babble! why? because, fyi i brought my baby tomato for a new layer of tinted because my old tinted somehow not that tinted anymore so since i have few hundreds with me so decided to bring it down over to Wawasan for a change. left my baby tomato there for them to TAKE SUPER GOOD CARE of it because dixon knows them quite well. so, yeah i guess they could be trusted. went back after lunch and it was freaking hot at 3pm that time and my baby tomato wasn't done yet! i was quite pissed already but nevermind, assuming that they might be really really busy so the lady boss apologized. okay. it was fine then. so went back again at 4pm REALLY ASSUMING that my baby tomato was okay already but HELL NO! not even one tiny bit of thingy were stuck on! I WAS MAD! DAMN MAD! and hell yeah, i went KABOOM! |
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| stressed out |
[Jul. 31st, 2008|05:42 pm] |
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me. stressed out. me right now. my brain's hurting so much now. where are you when i need to talk to you? ;(((((((((((((((((
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| why so serious? |
[Jul. 30th, 2008|11:42 pm] |
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caught DARK KNIGHT with btrice, alas and felyx over at STAR. effin awesome shit!
joker's laughs were so addictive it got me laughing!
i was somehow watching a comedy XD
"why so serious?"
this phrase got thinking. i guess i was taking things little too serious at times. things that i should get serious with, i didn't even bother to worry bout it but some small matter really got me serious all over it while it didn't even need any attention. again, i was foolish.
i don't feel like bathing. freaking cold! argh. but i'll smell. urgh. damn.
 
who wants to lick me? eff! HAHAHAHA |
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| it's unexplainable |
[Jul. 29th, 2008|11:58 pm] |
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whenever i see you,
my heart palpitates with excitement.
it's unexplainable.
you made me feels how it's like to be in love again.
but something just ain't right.
April was fine and dainty, April was awesome because my birthday falls on that month, April was a joy because i knew you. May was full of fun and excitement, the same as June but it was a little more stressful because of deadly assignments.
July is about to end in a few days time. it's full of joy, happiness, tears, sadness, tear-soaked-pillow nights, wet dreams. also came along the whirlwind of emotions. it was indeed disturbing. July is about to end. But is some ways, the past 3 months should not even exist to be made history. at most, in my history. but i'm glad it actually happened because i learnt alot. ;) |
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| are we gonna die soon? |
[Jul. 29th, 2008|08:47 pm] |
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this happened yesterday afternoon. sry for the poor quality cos i captured it with my phone instead of my slr cam.
well, guess the world is coming to an end soon |
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| fine day |
[Jul. 29th, 2008|01:11 am] |
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i'm laughing my ass off tonight!
thanks to mr.kevintan!
he's so effin hilarious! idk what's gotten into him but he's a big time miangiest ever!
anyways, today was fine. normal. nothing much.
had my haircut and my long loving side burn is GONE!
i'm missing it~
my userpic looks like so.. jiwang.
but he's my fat-ass bro
somemore the shirt looks like couple tee
wtf |
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| on with LJ |
[Jul. 28th, 2008|06:34 pm] |
okay. i messed up my blogspot BIG BIG TIME!
and now it's officially SHUTDOWN for wendywee-.blogspot.com!
WOOHOO!
anyway, i made a really really long decision on whether to use:
1) blogspot.. again
2) friendster's blog
3) livejournal
AND I DECIDED ON LIVEJOURNAL!~ |
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